a story of a girl

2008-03-08T04:50:00.000-08:00

BYE BYE TERM 1

ok there goes term 1. Fast uh? YUp true. And i haven't start any revision yet. Maybe during the march holidays i'll revise all my work . Yup didn't go to school for the past 3 days all because my fever came back and my skin rash didn't subside! Consult the Doctor that my Dad's friend recommanded. Yup it's located near our school area. Consultation fees are resonable rather than my mum's company doctor. Expensive and the medicine doesn't really help. Feel better now. Didn't take my PPR today since i'm absent. I know my results and they're pretty bad. OK no point crying over spilled milk. There's physics lesson on tuesday so i hope i can go and after that street soccer if the girls want . Haha=).

Went to Fico Sports Hub early in the morning for the Lion city cup opening ceremony(i guess?). yup woke up about 7 a.m , sent my bro for his training before heading to Fico. Nothing much though just me and my mum hanging around at the coffeeshop waiting for my dad to ends his thingy. Then went to his office to take stuff then yup at last its breakfast! . Haha . Yea then we headed for home.

Help my dad pack his stuffs becouse he'll be away for a month!! Dammit gonna miss him. All because of the Lion City cup he has to check in into the SSS. Damn. But oh well at least he's still in Singapore=). So dada Daddy miss you and all the best for the Lion City Cup X)

Ok i'm blogging craps but nvrm at least i wrote something . Ok till here folks! =D

I'll just forget about the past. But i'll keep the sweet memories. I regretted waiting for you all along becouse the outcome is always the same. But then at that point of time i decided to try.

2008-03-06T05:09:00.000-08:00

BAD NEWS

Well, for the past 2 weeks i'm always out of school. Out of 5 days of school, i'll be absent about 2 to 3 days. Damn all started when i fall sick right after the deyi match . Then 2 days later, i went to the doctor . And that's when it all started . I developed skin rash right after the polyclinic's medicine! Damn it man!!!. My fever is like going up and down and i'm scratching like a monkey. Oh well its didn't really spread until yesterday, my whole body was red . Yup then my dad brought me to this doctor near my school.. Haha suprisingly, the doctor knew who is Mr Quek . He also knows that Quek like to shout alot. Haha What a small world!!. Haha ok and because of this rashes i've to be excuse from soccer training for a long time . Dammit! . Anyway i think i'm allergy to some drugs .. Haha

Hmmm ok till here then .. Bye =))

2008-02-20T05:05:00.000-08:00

WHITLEY (4) vs. DEYI (2)

Haha yup COOL! We won against Deyi! Yup at last . Well we improved alot ever since last year. Yup stiil remember we lost to them either 4-0 or 3-1. Haha sorry i've a bad memory. Haha managed to scored 4 goals within the first half. How cool is that. Anyway one of the Deyi girls elow my chest till i have difficulties in breathing for awhile. yup and i have no idea how i can get a blister on my leg . Haha Anyway i was really pissed off in the pitch just now . REALLY angry . Damn it she just make me blow my top off. But ... nevermind let bygones be bygones ! Haha . ok ok, still have about 4 more matches to go before the next round. Oyr newt match is in 2 weeks time. Yup gonna be fully prepared in that day! Haha . Got a new jersey and lucky me my number is still 10. Anyway my pposition has changed . Farzana be the last man and me? I'm the "stopper"! . Haha I still need time to udjust myself to my new position . Haha ok enough said

YA-HOO!!!! Finally common test is over . Haha yup think i totally screwed up all the papers. Seriously i did'nt really study for all the papers just read through them again and again and again! . Haha yup . Ok till here alright

i waited for you to come but sadly you didn't. But i just hope you're alright=)

2008-02-14T22:00:00.000-08:00

"HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY"

Ok its been weeks since i last blog(as usual). Yup i'm really sorry cause there's really no time to blog even though i always play the com. Yupp anyway lots of things happened these days . I feel really REALLY disturb by it , but nevermind haha . Ok didn't go to school on monday and wednesday . Haha the reason is firstly: I'm "sick" , secondly: I (really) "overslept" . Yup and i miss alot of lessons and paperwork and practical and blah blah blah . School is becoming a DRAG . But what can i do? Haha i find it hard to keep myself awake in class nowdays . Haha . Anyway, i feel really happy today . Cause; Its "bye-bye to Miss Selvarajoo" and "HELLO MISS CHRISTINE CHONG" X) . Hah finally . Ever since Miss Selva step into the class, hell start . Yea you know me . Sometimes what she says is really really really makes me almost blow up . Still what can i say? She's a teacher and i ought to respect. Haha ok enough said . I'll be really attentive in class starting on monday =)

Ok great day , valentines' day . Haha yup nothing special . Made a card. For him . =)) . Haha ok Yam make a dedication without telling me . I htought it was from mme to her but the message was..

A dedication from PUTRI to MISS SELVA?

"Happy Valentine's Day miss selva. You're the best teacher. I love you"(its all very wrong! =x)

Just imagine how shocked i was . The teacher i HATED THE MOST became .. Nevermind i shall not say it . Yup after school went to J8 with the HUI PINGS . Haha nice! . Was walking and i saw Fu Quan and ****** . What the fish? Of all days , why must it be today =x . Omg me with my icons again . After that Yam went home so i went to find Lim they all . Walk around then headed for home . Ok blah blah b;ah and here i'm blogging .Tomorrow the whole school is going to SDC . How ridiculous is it? Well at least i CAN see that Whitley Sec Sch is not so selfish to pay the buses that cater us for free . Haha

Ok till here then peeps . Bye =)

2008-02-10T00:26:00.000-08:00

As i sit here breathing just listening

to you speak i hear the words ive

waited so long to hear as you

spill your heart to me.

my whole body tingles as chills run

down my spine i open my mouth to

tell you i love you too and always

have i kant keep it in no more.

i know she has you but when

do i get my chance?

as i sit and wait for your response

i hear nothing you are as suprised

as me as we wish we had said it

sooner its already to late but

i kept it so long. ..

2008-01-26T02:29:00.001-08:00

2008-01-26T01:26:00.000-08:00

Ok time to blog !

Many, many, many things happened recently . Wasn't really myself for a few days . ubt now i'm fine . Haha Yup sometimes what the teachers is saying about me can affect my friendship . Haha ok fine i'm better off sitting beind cause its good for yam so that she won't be distracted by my silliness every now and then . Haha but i'll still sit infront ocasionally .

The precious graduated batch got their results on thursday . I must say the results is not as good as last 2 years . Last year results, the top student got .. errr i'm not sure butu this year the top student got 3A1s and 3A2s . I still remember what the Principal told the 4N when we got our results . They said the same thing i guess. Our results was the worst in Whitley's history . Not sure if its true. I don't know what its like next year . Me and my results =/ *gulp*

But anyway ..

"CONGRATS TO THE LAST YEAR'S SEC 4 AND SEC 5 FOR DOING WELL =)"

Alright . *Sigh* here's a little poem for that special someone =)

Life is kind of like the ocean,
You can see how it starts, but not the way it ends.
So lets just take things as they come to us,
And be happy we're best friends.

Let us learn from each other,
We can help each other grow.
And let us always be there for one another,
At times we are feeling low

May we always be able to put a smile on each others face,
And a twinkle in our eyes
And let us never forget all the good times,
Like watching shooting stars fall from the skies.

The laughs just keep on coming,
Nothing can ever take that away.
Cause they start from the inside,
And get deeper everyday.

They make us stronger,
As they bring us closer together.
They always make our days brighter,
No matter the weather.

Just the sound of that laugh,
And the sight of that smile.
Makes every risky minute,
Worth the while.

A moment where nothing else matters,
And a chance to be free.
All the rest fades away,
And its just you and me.

We can just walk together,
To that beautiful place.
Side by side,
With that look upon our face.

The look,
That says it all.
The one that reaches out,
And will never let us fall.

I see the truth in your eyes,
They're so honest and true.
They tell me everything,
And there is nothing you can do

You can't fool me,
Cause its not your story to tell.
Its straight from your heart,
And I know it so well.

Your heart is so honest,
Caring and pure.
The only thing that can never lie to you,
This I know for sure.

You know it always makes you wonder,
Day in and day out.
How two different hearts can understand,
What the other is about.

When your heart skips' I can feel it,
When its sad, mine is too.
And if it ever feels emtpy and alone,
Always know that I am here for you

So best friends it is,
Now and forever.
That's the best feeling there is,
Nothing could be better. No never. =))

2008-01-16T02:14:00.000-08:00

ARIGATO GOZAIMASU !
ANNYONG HASEYO !
NI HAO !
HELLO =)!

Ok basically i'm really out of my mind . Well suddenly went bonkers in class today . Miss Selva as usual like to compare my with Yam . I meant the whole thing doesn't even have anything to do with YAm .. Porr Her =/ BOO-HOO !!! Haha Anyway had soccer training yesterday and we did like crazy routines ! . DAMMIT now my whole body is aching . Muscle pulls and stuffs . Yup i was lock out of the class yesterday after recess and i was like "Stalin HELP ME !" Haha

Yup it was REALLY hilarious cause well some people was also lock OUTSIDE BUT THEY STILL MANAGED TO GET IN .. Whatever it is .. Yea .. Haha

Ok this year we're gonna have 2 sets of jersey X) YAY!!! . Ok the first set , looks like our school logo . You know err orange with grey strips and white shorts . And the second set , looks like the singapore plag . Haha White with red stripes and black pants . So yup got a rough description of it . Anyway something happened and i felt really hurt after hearing what he said. As i want to get back to him i say well my ex's name . I felt REALLY lousy after that . Just imagine man . I say his handphone's wallpaper and it even hurts me more . Haha anyway we're ok now . I'm still waiting you know like he asked me too cause i know once i let go of it , the love will never comes back=/

Ok why AM I SO DEPRESSED ????? Haha today was a great day . Well crazy with my crazy partner Mr. Kent Teo . Oh btw he's 2 feet tall so those who are small build PLS BECAREFUL he might just squash you like a paper ! X) Haha yup and and i hate that FUCKING BICTH TEACHER .. Oops =x no bad words . Yea yall should know . Its our POA teacher . Sometimes she need to get hold of herself .

Ok i shall stop here anyway heard this song and i love it . Well the song is like 2 - 3 years ago but who cares? Old songs sounded really nice after they're improvised =)

"Why Can't I?" - Liz Phair

Get a load of me, get a load of you

Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you

It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you when we're out at night

Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right

And I've got someone waiting too

What if this is just the beginning

We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up

Finding someone else you can't get enough of

Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch

Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch

But wouldn't it be beautiful

Here we go, we're at the beginning

We haven't f***ed yet, but my heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

High enough for you to make me wonder

Where it's goin'

High enough for you to pull me under

Somethin's growin'

Out of this that we can control

Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

2008-01-12T05:25:00.000-08:00

[Yesterday , 11 January 2008]

Went to Singapore Ploy on friday with Yam,Lim,Lynette,Xin Hui and both Christina. Haha it was INDEED fun and i managed to do some "scanning" around . Haha lotsa cute boys .. Oops ! But still i'll stick to one =) . Well Singapore poly have introduced many new courses and there's alot choose from! Drats =/ . Yam found her dream school and that is the Singapore Marintime Academy . I have to say after accompanying Yam , I've found out the Diploma in Nautical Studies is actually kinda fun=) .. Considering it i guess? Haha ok and Christina Chong wanted to go to The School ofChemical and Life Sciences. Didn't get to go inside the school . After that all of us walk from the SMA to go to the School Of Business . Haha my cousin is there and moreover the School Of Media And Info-Communication is there too in one building. Haha he elaborate more on the course of err Diploma in media and communication .. Like some of the modules but some i doesn't relly have interest in . Anyway , headed back home after that . Me and Yam took the train cause we want to was time . Haha went to TPY and ate Long John Silvers before heading home . Haha . I was damn tired cause we walk a long distance and my bag is heavy! Anyway kinda decide what to take after my 'o' level even though its still along way . haha

1st choice : Diploma in Music and Audio Technology
2nd choice : Diploma in Media and Comminication
3rd choice : Diploma in BuisnessAdminstration

Anyway its too early to think now . Must study hard ! =)

[Today , 12 January 2008]

Ok meet up with Yam today . Haha meet later in the late afternoon cause i went out to eat with my family at Little India=) . I was damn full . Anyway went to Kinokuniya . Yam wated to buy the Japanese Phasebook cause its good as it teaches you how to speak and learn Japanese . Well she also bought comics and a history book . Wel rich uh? Haha anyway the History book is really nice to read as it has alot of information about the past . During the Hitler Rule . Yup i bought a book , recipes book for my mum . Yea its her birthday tomorrow=) Haha . THen went to Heeren to buy the Jay Chou CD - Bu neng shuo de mi mi !!!!! haha shall save up to buy his new album some other time haha . Then went to TPY and headed home .

Didn't went to today's training and i feel kinda bad actually .But nevermind . I can't even find a single boot in my house after the tuesday training . Guesse my dad has fond out i stilll play soccerbehind his back and he decicded to keep away all the boots ! =(. And secondly , i also half-hearted to either take the boots from my dad's car or to just forget it . I choosethe second option . Anyway i'm still not in the good terms with my cach after the Tuesday training . Whatever it is i'm not in the wrong ! .

Ok well surfing the net earlier on i came across a Japanese Kids band aged not more then 10 years old!!! GOD DAMMIT THEY PLAY LIKE PROFESSIONALS MAN !!! ... Their band name is i think 'Ryunosuke Band' . Yup chech it out guys =)

2008-01-09T04:07:00.000-08:00

OK i'm back ! Basically school was alright . Lesson was like hell shit . OK and btw sadly to say that Miss Christine Chong will be away for a month and she will be back after Chinese new year . So she says someone was going to teach us Social Studies and Englis . She didn't wanna tell us who so my first instinct was Mr Mohan . Haha . But after awhile my second instinct told me that it's gonna be Miss Selva . but how can it be possible since she has retire ! . Haha Anyway my second instinct was right !!!!!!!! ITS MISS LILY SELVARAJOO !!!!! God DAMMIT!!!

OK stop cursing ! Haha Whatever it is she's gonna see us for 9 periods which will last for about 2 hours on TUESDAY . So ood luck to my class and i ! OK

Went to eat Pizza hut with lim, yam, lynette, Xinhui and Christina . Haha . Its been months since we sat down and eat together yea? HAha =) . We kinda "make-a-fool-of-ourself" therre haha , can't blame us we're just students trying to enjoy ourself. Haha <3.. Ok Something happened . We was shocked by the loud tunder and i was like "i thought a bomb just blown off" . Haha think to much . And after a few seconds lim said something that broke the quet atmosphere . WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA .. oh yea .. She said "Oh Kent teo is coming! ". And we laugh out so loud that everyone was like looking at us ! .. Haha *embarassed*. =0! . Haha OK After that headed home .

So yup this is the summarised version of what i did today . And yea , i used to be scared of Kent because he looks scary , but i'm proud to say that now , its the other way round ... its
KENT WHO IS FRIGHTENED OF ME NOW !!!! WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil* =)
Before i end here's a piece of poem =)

[The Best Friend]

The best of friends,
Can change a frown,
Into a smile,
when you feel down.

The best of friends,
Will understand,
Your little trials,
And lend a hand.

The best of friends,
Will always share,
Your secret dreams,
Because they care.

The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold. =)

2008-01-05T06:08:00.000-08:00

Well what a day! .
School was great buy the timetable they set for us is like office hours! Monday and Wednesday school ends between 1500hrs - 1520hrs .. For tuesday and thursday it ends between 14oohrs - 1420hrs . The bell will rings for EVERY 20 minutes and the bell rings will last VERY LONG . And its getting really IRRITATING . Haha =) . I went for a walk with Karim since the classes are getting kinda bored . Haha . Went honme late for the last 3 days . Haha

Alright i'll shall blog about what happened for the last 2 days some other time . =))

Anyway i still love him . I won't denied :)

2007-12-31T04:47:00.000-08:00

Hmmm . Its seems like decades since i last updated my blog uh? Haha yup . My computer's down for like a few months, 1 year to br exact . Haha finally my parents decided to reinstall the internet. Yup my com is still down ,but nevermind still have 2 laptops that's still available. That's so much too update but i'm just kinda lazy to type all the way. Sometimes it can get boring .. Haha year ends really quickly . Ok lets flashback my 2007 !

[Studies]
Alot of things happened these few months. Friendship ,studies ,relationships etc .. etc.. Haha Its really hard to remember but i'll try .
This year was the N levels and its really stress.. My grades was all border line in the 1st term but still i managed to pass all . As time goes by my grades drop . Haha its the influence of street soccer i guess? Haha can't blame me its just my passion!! =)) .. But it was fun playing with different kinda people. You get to learn new experiences and know how to play soccer better Haha. In the 2nd term i pass all and fail only 1 . Impressive huh?? haha but by mid year i fail all and pass only 1 !! That's my turning point. The impact of failing hit me really hard that it make me realised that studies was really important ! . But i still fool around during the june holidays sneeking our to play soccer and stuffs . Got caught once but who cares right? haha . When school reopens i managed to buck up really hard since the exams was nearing . Done lotsa studying with the girls , home and outside tuition and really really ALOT of revising at home . But overall my hard work was paid off rreally well . I kept on praying that i'm happy as long as i get below 10 or just hit 10 . But to my surprised i managed to get 8 ! . I was really schoked . And my damn teacher Mr Yeo msg me stuffs like "Go and buy ITE uniform " and i was like cursing him all along . He's the reason why i didn't slept well Haha . Yup . In the hall , he gave me the ITE booklet and that point of time i almost breakdown and cry but he was like laughing and showing that silly face and i know he was lying . Haha Thanked God so much for making me pass ! Oh yead and congrats to the following people

[ N level Top 5 scorers]
1.Alexander
2.Koh May
3.Ong Ghee Hoe
4.Selvesegaran
5.Christina Chong

Hope i got it correct yea? =))

[Friends]
Meet alot of friends this year . People from different schools and races. It was fun . Make friends with people who is an ex-whitleyan . Surprisingly i didn't noticed them when they're in school. Haha hmmm , friendship bonds grew tighter but sadly some was stranded . Sometimes it confused me but , yup i really can't explained.
Ok That's all alright?? Haha i'm really lazy to sit and type all the way sorry !

"HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!!"

2007-04-23T19:04:00.000-07:00

Its just another day in school . Instead of studying in blogging!!!! Haha true enough had a really sweet sweet week . Haha im looking foward to other days too =)

When i sit in class i somehow feel like there's a bee buzzing around me . I don't know if im crazy or what . but its true. I hate when people tends to insult someones personality even it don't concerns me . The person somehows means alot to me . You can say whatever you want but calling someone SHORT and the person is a girl you called her a BOY, its just damn FUCKING hurtful . Is like telling someone to be somebody she is not . Like telling the person's mother that "Hey! Your child looks like a guy instead of a girl!!!" . Think of what her mother will feel !!! ...

Why are you jealous that people are so rich and fortunate then you ? You tends to use your "family problems" to con us in giving you that sympathy . In this world there are others who are FAR MORE LSS FORTUNATE THEN YOU !!!!!!!!!! . You at least have someone to care for you . You may not know when she would want to just leave you alone to take care of yourself! Im wondering when will you change? While reading what you write i feel like laughing ..

YOU WANT US TO BE FRANK TO YOU? WE GLADLY WOULD . JUST DON'T SHOW ME THAT FUCKING LOOK AFTER WE SAID OUR PIECE ...EVEN THOUGH I DON'T REALLY LIKE YOU , I TRIED TO MEND WAYS TO BE YOUR FRIEND ..

I just had enough of you ..

2007-04-15T18:10:00.001-07:00

I Still Miss You
by Angela Craig

This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time

Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong

There are nights I wake up crying
And wishing you were here
To hold me in your arms
And kiss away my tears

There is something that keeps me holding on -
What I'll never know
But one day things will go my way
And I'll have you in my arms

2007-04-15T17:48:00.000-07:00

wow wow .. What a day .. Haha yea my weekends are spend with lots of memories . Sweet memories . Haha . Had a competition at Boon lay on Saturday . It took place at Fico sports club if im not wrong . yea meet alot of friends .. It was a great experience though. Yea Im so tired now . For more details pls go to Vivien's blog at www.rockwithyou-.blogspot.com . Haha

2007-02-22T18:58:00.001-08:00

2007-02-22T18:57:00.001-08:00

2007-02-22T18:49:00.000-08:00

Lalalala .. hahaha .. yea yea ye ye ye ye ye ye y y y.......

what The Fuck ????????????? Ok im nuts ... Speak of the devil . ok no personal stuffs cause yammy is here ?????????????? Hahahahaha Yea YAMMY .. nice name .. Xiao yam .. Her nick name ok . Bah . here are some pics...

=)

2007-02-20T21:21:00.001-08:00

=)

2007-02-20T21:20:00.001-08:00

2007-02-20T20:51:00.000-08:00

`WELCOME BACK PUTRI

Well yea basically i didn't really blog for about decades haha yea . It was that my com yea as usual broke down so its like "what the ...??" . School as per normal well . I bought this picture from comics connection , its actually Wu Zun from Farenheit pic. Early in the morning i shouldn't let May and Vivien see . Was my mistake . The almost tore my wallet into half?? Yea true . Then they told pearleen . So 3 maniacs came chasing after me after rcess . Make me lose my face =.=". Yea LOSERS hahaha . Can't blame them . Vivien from liking Hayden Chrstensen now like Wu Zun and and May from Jiro like Wu Zun . WTF? . Well anyway girls let me make it loud and clear . HE'S MINE FROM THE VERY BEGINING . Hahaha .. Whatever . ok will try to blog frequently if i can in school . Haha till here dudes ..

`To all my Chinese Friends .. GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-11T05:30:00.000-07:00

-Retreat-

The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried
After leaving you
(I) did not regain more freedom
(From) the air
(I) smelt our distance
A heart breaking ending
is continuous just like breathing
The yellowing diary lied in the drawer
I(had) pressed dried [our] memories
That smile is summer
Our past
Has been forgotten as time goes by
Love after anoxia (lack of oxygen)
Careless tears are unnecessary
I know that the fault is not in either one of us
We just forgot how to step back
We made promises to each other with confidence
Yet it has been emptied by time
I know that the fault is not in either one of us
It's just that letting go would make things easier
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory

2006-09-11T04:55:00.000-07:00

I have long want to blog . but sorry i've no time for it =)) !!

Well many things happened during September holidays . Haha bought 3 Jay Chou's album in a week . No in less than 4 days . Now im broke clean . Yea went to get the "Still Fantasy" album with Yam then they say in the evening so i went home and yam went swiming . Later both of us meet our parents and bought it with them . Haha the poster is so lame yet nice . Quite big i must say.. . Haha we was like going to every CD shops in Toa Payoh just to find one particular CD!!!

That pass few days ,i had a bond with Yam . OUr friendship strenghten just in a few days i supposed . That really help me cause i used to hate her . She like scoldong me for making noise . But i admit it i did . After talking about a few hours i found another great friend . We talk all about school stuffs ,jsy chou,friendship and lots more . Then i realised i hate a person for the wrong reason . Haha . but its true she's really great .When we opened our hearts to each other , i figured out we had the same goal in common .Friendship is very important in live . Without them there's no one for you to turn to . no one to joke, laugh and have fun with . I used to think im in the wrong class . but im wrong .
Now i truely know who are the friends that really meant to me !

Back to school yea had fun in class talk like we never seen each other for the pass few months like that . Catch up with alot of things . Yea Was quite attentive in class today . Suprisingly !After school went to buy jay's old album . Yea was there waiting for me . Haha i love 'em all!!!!

Alright till here then gonna study . Will update more if im free . Here's a translation on one of Jay's song in his recent album its very nice yea . Must check it out yea !!

-White Windmill-

White kites,
Quiet innocence,
The feeling of reality,
And the dreamlike state of distance ([They are] like a dream that's too far away),
The oceans by the sky,
Watching your naive smile,
Holding my hand ,
Dream and hopes have no abyss ,
It's good we have walked till here.
Because I don't want to walk to the end of happiness this quickly,
Two hearts with no blessings,
But loving you is not at all lonely,
[I'll] never let you cry again,
I'll carry you till the end,
Can we not turn back ,
You quietly embrace me,
Saying you don't need any promises,
I were alone there would be more freedom [You say if I'll be more carefree if I'm alone],
I don't understand what you are saying,
No matter what I will not let your hand loose,
I'll carry you till the end,
Can we not think too much,
will we be hand in hand,
a bit later til we reach the end ([Only] Reach the end a little later),
You said we shouldn't meet again for the sake of a moment ,
thanks for letting me hear,
Because I'm waiting forever....

2006-08-24T02:22:00.000-07:00

Went out with christ today . Had much fun hahah. Read her blog to find out more!!! Hahaha

I wasn't myself today, deep inside i know something is missing. I just can't spell it out. I may seen happy but im just trying to put up an act so people won't figure out that i'm down. I must say i don't know that cause of it too .I'm still finding it . People always have dream for themselves . I too have but im afraid it might not be coming true. Im scared that i'll be left behind a hundred footsteps away from my peers. There's always something i wanna be . I shall not tell . Only certain people knows . My dream will be fulfil if i can find the right track in my life . Sometimes when im alone , i feel like im lost and abandoned by people .

-The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things-

Dark clouds cast a shadow over our hearts
I listen intently to the feelings that have long been silenced
Distinct and clear
Just like a beautiful landscape
That can only be clearly seen in one's memories
Can a heart that's been thoroughly wounded continue to love me?
I tried hard to hold (your) cold hands
The tenderness in the past
Is locked in time
All that's left are sadness that cannot be dispersed
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
I light a candle to warm this year-end's autumn
The aurora steals across the horizon
The north wind flits across the face that's thinking of you
Ashes from my burning heart falls like leaves
But I can never regain (your) familiar face again
Longing is like maple leaves, slowly drifting down
Why must I try to recover all before winter arrives?
My love for you transcends all time
Two streams of tears that were shed for the autumn's end
Let the love flood through
I just want you by my side
Can a heart that's been thoroughly wounded continue to love me?
I tried hard to hold (your) cold hands
The tenderness in the past
Is locked in time
All that's left are sadness that cannot be dispersed
The lush mountainside forest
Withers in the North Wind
I sway the windchime gently
Attempting to awaken this abandoned love
Snowflakes have already covered the ground
Fearing that the maple leaves outside the window are already frozen

2006-08-21T04:26:00.000-07:00

YOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha im "abnormal" today . Yea the whole day till recess ppl say im abnormal cause i hadn't been talking and rather daydreaming . Haha then too bad the old me came back !!! Boohoo Haha . Yea did nothing in particular (that's what i've been saying all along!!!).. Yea here's what i did for yesterday!!!

-Sunday-
Yea when to watch soccer with my brother . WELL FUCK before that watch "The Chronicles Of Narnia" again at home . I must say its very interesting with their assence or whatever they call that .. Haha Yea say his girlfriend.. My first impression on her was that "Is she an indon maid??" Haha i know im cruel . Hahaha.
Yea then watch soccer with my bro. My dad's team with Home united . Well lost 2-1 but at least there's a 1 there for my dad'a group!!! Haha lionel Lewis is so suai!!! . Haha got an up-close of him . Haha But too bad he got critisized by my dad's team fans !!!!That's all yea

-Today-
Early in the morning when to play soccer with Terry and friends . Before that when to eat breakfast at Macs . Discuss some issues with the others before Edmund arrived. We went back to school with a "i-hate-them-attitude" . Well shall not mention it here . Im scared cetain people will get offended !!. Yea then went to Toa Payoh with CHRISTINA CHONG SIEW YAN!!!!. Was fun rather . Its like she relay on me everytime. Without me she will die!!. Yea went to LJS since KFC dosen't produce enough coupons. Then we had a small talk .

She confessed to me that she tol Bryan Ong to like me . I was cool then she said he was rather angry . Then i told her

Me : He very those kinda nerdy, gay...etc
(*snaps*)
Chris : Hey he's not like that ok!!!
Me : Oh ok !!!!

Yea she SNAPS ME of my sentence . I must say there's a little thing going on between them . Then there's another conversation again on him . She confessed!!!!!!!!!

Chris : Actually i just like him just a little.
Me : Continue!!
Chris : But i've got this feeling that i suddenly like Gerrald !. I don't know why!
Me : *shocked*

You see people when they are kinda quiet , there's always somethingt in heir heart wanting to tell their secrets . One of which is CHRISTINA CHONG SIEW YAN.

-I keep my head high up-

2006-08-16T05:04:00.000-07:00

What a day!!!

Did nothing in particular . I shall highlight something . Miss Tham taught us this
--> A + B -> C + D . As my class is famouse for the ABCD boys . it meant
-->Andre + Boon Siew -> Chin Ann + Douglas . Yea its lame but only Chin Ann is solid while others is aqueous. Haha yea had much fun in chemistry lab. I must say im attentive in class now . But i still can't get things inside my head. I hope i still can . STM .Haha yea

went to Pizza hut again but this time with vivien,may,xin yi,michelle,pearleen and christina. Yea had fun . Yam ate lunch with lim and gang. Yea went there and some "act-branded-school-but-now" girls Pissed us all of. Yea then the most lamest thing they every did was to turn-look-and-act-cute-laugh!!!. Woah i just just told them off haha stupid NDP bags girls. Haha Yea then roam around toa payoh to hunt for stickers. Yea bought those cute little winnie the pooh stickers. So adorable that i didn't want to use it . Haha . Then headed off home.

I'm addicted to reading "Chicken Soup" stories. Its all about love,friendship,family and societies. well some of them got what they wanted but some of them didn't they even think of killing themselves. Teenagers THEESE DAYS!!!. Yea Now i really know what life means to me and my family .

2006-08-15T04:38:00.000-07:00

Your True Love Is an Aries

Why you'll love an Aries:

An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo you
Never boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave!

Why an Aries will love you:

You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries...
And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

2006-08-15T04:17:00.000-07:00

DREADFUL DAYS ALL ALONG. Hah yea its true with all the tests piling up like mountains . I figure out something and that is examinations are about in 2 months time? Yea i think so . WOAH time really pass fast . Miss foong came to my class and asked us "Who is confidence in passing to sec 4??" . No one raised up so i raised up then everyone did . Yea some people didn't i supposed that they don't wanna go up . Yea confidence is what you need now. I've just started revising all subjects at the very beginig. Yea i don't understand quite alot .

Had math common test early in the mornig. I must say its tough!!! . I only managed to do variations and other simple equations . Man! I'm at the back now!!!.But i hope there's still time if i make an effort!! Haha . Yea .

After school when to toa payoh central to roam around . Bought some "Winnie the pooh" stickers . I must say i've got chase out of shop just because i want to see a sticker which was in a plastic!!!. But in the end i bought because the granny looks pittiful. Haha . Yea .

I guesse people changed . Seeing them in another way makes me feel weird i must ..

The person i "used" to love change alot. As in really alot i just don't really know the him now . I hope he knows whats he's doing..

2006-08-08T02:56:00.000-07:00

WHAT A DAY !! Basically did nothing. Just slack around in class because the player can't be played. Then Duck on some songs . Yea listen then went to recess. For assembly the concert was ok. Yea whitley idol was cool . Great talents.

This morning got my warning letter. Its not fair. Basically, some of the ex-com who also didn't do anything in particular didn't get the WARNING LETTER!!!! . Well what the mother fucker!!!. Hope that person will be cursed. Fuck!!!

Oh well 2 days of holidays. Hmmm what i'm gonna do is study.. Obedient huh??? .
"The Suite life of Zack and Cody" simply rocks . Haha love cole and dylan sprouse. Haha Oh well off then ..

-You simply brightens my day up -

2006-08-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

Well well well .. What a day .. Ok Had guides and we played erm soccer and netball .. We were devided to 2 groups . And we name ourselves "the kukus" . Ok .. Firstly we played soccer .. the kukus won . Haha thanks to me for scoring 3 goals . Then netball JT managed to score a goal . Then the next match was postponed due to the time . Then went home and here i am .

Well figured our something , Mr damien yeo likes to show people NDP videos like he's the one who is in it . Haha And he made us do a mind map . Its easy though . PLus its easier to study that way cause if we write notes it will take forever for us to remember . Yea its true . Now my dad send me to tuition one-on-one with a teacher . I think its great . but its better if its a guy so that my interest in maths will shoot up greatly . Haha lame i know . Well gonna work hard ..

Next, i wrote a story . Well my imagination just run wild that time . Its called either "life story of a teenager" or "a life journal" . Well its basically about a girl yea .. Will post it if i managed to get it done as in the words , grammer and tenses . Haha . Im soooo bored that's why .. and i took someone's words . " why don you be a scriptwriter" . Haha i know thanks to her im trying to be attentive in my work . Haha

Well i just fell in love with 3 guys . yea 3 GUYS . I was skocked too . all different races one is yea you know who . The other is also you know who and the last one is also you know who .. haha . Yea

Till here then ..

2006-08-01T06:15:00.000-07:00

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now,
Oh love, no
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore, mmm...
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

OOH!!!!!!!! What a nice song . anyway i started to thing and miss my hamster very much . Well maybe i killed it? sigh .. I loved him BOOHOO ... Went out with Christina today just roam around and shop here and there joke here all those stuffs. Its fun going out with christina . Haha . Well we shall do it again girl-friend . Haha Both of us . Haha Christina will everytime try to tip toe . When asked . She'll reply "You verytall" . She thinks that i'm a girrafe or something . Oh ok im bullshitting all the way . Gonna study . Haha . OOH shukri my brother's friend is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo suai .. Haha whatever just gaga over him for a period of time .. Haha .

The guy that i kove makes me lose fate in him seeing you in that kinda way makes me feel disheartend to continued loving you . Well .???

2006-07-31T04:48:00.000-07:00

(top)Tiara,Datuk s.Effendi and Hani Karmila
(second)Hani Mohsin Hanafi
(Last)Hani's funeral held at his house

Let me take a moment to write about Hani Karmila, the daughter of Hani Mohsin, who passed away yesterday at the age of 43.

I was at home watching the 8 o'clock news, yesterday.
I saw the tears of Hani Karmila as her father was taken away on the stretcher.
I saw the confusion in Hani Karmila's face when reporters talked to her.
I feel the loss of this fragile 9-year-old girl, Hani Karmila, when she paid her last respect at her father's funeral.
I feel the love of this young girl, Hani Karmila, for her father, Hani Mohsin, when she kissed her father for the last time, before they put him to rest.

I am saddened by the death of her father .............. I am grieving for Hani Karmila.

The Story is like this ....
That was what Hani Karmila, 10, told her mother Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina after her father collapsed at the Low Cost Carrier Terminal of Kuala Lumpur International Airport yesterday.
The girl called her mother using her father's handphone immediately.
She and her father, well-known television personality Hani Mohsin Hanafi, 41, had been waiting for a flight to Alor Star. They were at the AirAsia counter at about 9.50am.
The girl told Utusan Malaysia that they were leaving for a week's holiday in Langkawi and Penang.
She said that while they were at the registration counter, her father turned to her and said: 'Quick, we're late.'
Then he collapsed.
Hani Karmila said she was shocked. Airport and airline staff rushed to provide emergency aid to Hani Mohsin. He was rushed to a nearby clinic where he was pronounced dead. He is believed to have had a heart attack.
Imagine Pictures executive producer Yasin Haji Hamid told Bernama that Hani Mohsin had been on his way to Langkawi.
Imagine Pictures is a production house owned by Hani Mohsin, an actor and host of Roda Impian, a Malaysian version of Wheel of Fortune.

-HAPPY ABOUT HOLIDAY-

Hani Mohsin's ex-wife Tiara Jacquelina said he had called him a few days ago. He had been looking forward to his holiday with his daughter.
Well-known actress Tiara Jacquelina told Utusan Malaysia: 'He was really happy at being able to take a holiday with Mila as he had been busy with work for a long time.'
Hani Karmila is the only child of Tiara Jacquelina and Hani Mohsin. The couple divorced in 1998.
Tiara Jacquelina is now married to Datuk Seri Effendi Norwawi, minister in the prime minister's department.
News of Hani Mohsin's death circulated rapidly by e-mail and SMS.

WHAT THE FUCK .. Well i was SHOCKED by his suddened death . Yea i admire him for his contributions to the Industries of acting . Well we lost another
celebrity in just a week . Last week Ishak Ahmad a local celebrity died in his sleep in a hotel at the age of 50 .
He also died of heart problems..

Hani Mohsin's was buried right beside his mother's grave in Kuala Lumpur , Klang

2006-07-17T01:47:00.000-07:00

Im sorry i just anyhow said that kinda stuffs to you . Im sorry i didn't mean too . In a fit of anger i said that . But then deep inside i don't meant to say that . Im sorry that i hurt you . Even though in just a PS i will continued to contribute to Guides as much as i can . So that our guides will be famous . =)

2006-07-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

The sec 4s step down and the new PLC step up . Well it was great but kinda ok sad abit .I don't know what to say man ..

Well i became the PS again but for yasmine patrol . I was kinda ok larh at least got a post kinda mood but when wei shi told me something i couldn't hold backmy tears . A day of guilt .I was quite suprised by those fake ppl who can really act well . I don't know maybe who knows . You were there when they decide who is which . But then you were dissapointed by my post . I simply couldn't understand maybe you think im trying to blame you but no . Im sorry that i let you down and i didn't mean to . The promised i made to you was always kept and bear in my mind . But didn't i expect that would happen . I walk with my head up thinking your wish will be fufil but then after theceremony i walk with my head down in disgrace . Did i do anything wrong . I don't like accussing ppl but i need answers to it . But i still respect you in any way didn't i?? Thanks to my "playfulness" i didn't get what i want . From now shall i walk with my head down in DISGRACE? Tell me ..

Congrats to all those who make it to be the PL , PS and CL . Proud of you peolple . Didn't i expect that Jiak teng's PS will be Christina . Haha lets see them how they control their members . Haha i know you ppl can do it HUH?? .. Yea .As we arrived to the place you stand on your feet look at me and went off . I still can see those eyes .

-I'm Sorry-

2006-07-13T03:54:00.000-07:00

Everytime i read someone's blog, its always not a happy one . In life we have to appreciate everytime that comes to you even though its bad or good . You may not like it but we only have one life and we have to treasure it alot . Was reading someone's blog when i came across adam kosnan's blog. He seems right to what he mean . Parents scolded us for our own good . If we kept on rebelling and the give up on us we will go hayewire of wtsoever . . I won't continue as my mind is hphm BLANK!!!

Everytime i tried to catch;
My dreams seems to slipped away from me;
When i realised ;
I think its all meant to be ..

"One Language, Football"

2006-07-11T03:01:00.000-07:00

Well i cna't believe my imagination can run so wild.. Haha . When to have my lunch at Intermac . Was fun fooling around with vivien . Haha hiding her things . She almost cry when we hid her wallet poor thing !!! Haha Yea then Shop around for "Brasil" stuffs . Well haha didn't know that may is such a good goalkeeper and vivien runs like a chicken .. Haha that is what kin kit told me haha . Well we are obsessed with brasil and football nowdays . We intend to form a team i hope so . Learn stuffs Haha . I was listening to a song when i dream thati was given an honor throphy together with vivien and may for our contributions by Zinedine Zidane. Haha well i couldn't think more off it haha .. Well here is a vidoe hope you people like it .. Enjoy !!

2006-07-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

www.nikesoccer.com

2006-07-10T03:50:00.000-07:00

Oh . What a day!! Din't when to school was to tired to wake up . Whatch the world cup . Italy won France lost . Haha penalty shots only mah !! 5-3 . What a luck . Ok .Dind't relly watch the whole match just some cause i dozed off most of the time .. Haha Well Zizou did a nice move to erm well i forgotten who . Haha Nice move "head shot". Did nothing over the weekend .

Well to the spirits of love and peace im sorry i can't come for the perfoemance . Hope you people understand . Well shit yea ..

Ok woeld cup gone .. Well next four years whole will emerged the champion again? Haha .. BRAZIL!!!.. Hope history won't repeat itself . Imagine Singapore win the world cup 2010?? Well its a MIRACLE . Ok Fifa world cup 2010 will be held at South Africa !! Take note huh?? Haha

2006-07-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

WOAH !!! Its been ages since i last blog?? Too busy yea . Anyway term 3 started off quite good . A tribute to a teacher ..

THANKS FOR TEACHING ME MISS LILY BOK!!!

Even though i don't really like her , she made me realised stuffs that i don't wanna think about . Well haha here is a poem ..But its in spanish haha ..

(Spanish)
Suene sobre que le satisface,
van a adonde usted desea ir,
sean quien usted desea para ser,
usted tienen solamente una vida,
para hacer que le hace feliz...

(English)
Dream about what pleases you,
Go where you want to go,
Be who you want to be,
You only have one life,
To do what makes you happy.

Realise your dreams people ...

2006-06-18T02:26:00.000-07:00

Woah its been like kinda long since i started blogging well i dont really know what to blog .. Haha

2006-05-29T03:44:00.000-07:00

I turn the corner, and there you are,
While we both pretend not to see the other.
We keep walking, our eyes straight ahead,
And I'm grateful, as we pass one another.

We were best friends for one year,
A year of laughter, a year of tears.
In the short time of bliss,
We had promised to be friends for years.

But those ‘years' have now been altered,
And the friendship has lasted just one.
I know that it is the end,
This is a friendship that will not be won.

You don't understand why it ended,
Or that I didn't want it to.
But sometimes in life,
You have to do what you have to do.

This was one of those cases,
I could no longer call you my friend.
I now know it can never go back,
And I have to realize, this IS the end.

2006-05-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

I was surfing the net when i found a nice love sad story kinda touch when i read it .. Here it goes.

-The CD Boy-

A boy walked into a CD store
and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday...

" The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out
with me? Love, Jacelyn

=))

2006-05-26T03:41:00.000-07:00

Got back my results . Wasn't really good . Failed all except for malay . Yea i was sad , i mean i work so hard in the end the results remained the same . I couldn't really ... yea .. I will try my best . Feel like .. Haiz . Well i don't know .. BUt .. From today, will my life change for a better or will it be the same? Anyway went to eat with chrit,SAYING,mei gui,xin yi and another girl . Haha Christina saw a big ant yea BIG and started screaming . So i decided to kick it away and i found out christ had ran away Haha the stupidest thing is that i kick it towards her and she scream hell lot of LOUD..

I'm happy i have you as my great friend-Christina C AKA EGG!!

Well i've been receiving msges from you but im really happy seeing your name in bold . Yea i don't know what you're motive are since we didn't chated fer months and months . Well i hope you're not up to something cruel . I accept it .

Something really buggs me every now and then . Well now my heart only desires one guy but my mind has 2. Well i can't really decide on it . Both are equel to me but only one space in my heart..Well i don't know what im talking about . Hope to find the

only one

now.

I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you

2006-05-24T00:35:00.000-07:00

Lifehouse-Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

2006-05-23T03:15:00.000-07:00

how do you feel when the world is not in pieces ?? I mean not together went you expect it to be? There maybe lots of ups and downs in life . But what if one gets out of hand? Sometimes we may get stress thinking about it all the time but it sure take a very long time to ends isn't it??Well maybe after sometime we may get over it and put it in the past . Plus if we kept on bringing the past our future may not come. Its because we tend to repeat the past over and over again. Its like a merry-go-round . But if the past we dissolves we may have a very bright future , everyone wants it right?? Who dosen't? Well i once fell into a big trouble . And i like a ,ouse hid behind all of it hoping not to be noticed by anyone but then i realised it was my fault . So i owned up . What im trying to say is thet don't be afraid if you did something wrong . Sometimes owning up is a deed because we know our mistakes. When i didn't owned up i feel like there's someone telling me that im a liar and stuffs . I tend to get scared caused i thought it was a ghosts or something . But after confessing i was realived . yea . Well im writing craps . I know bu5t im trying to tell what's in my mind now . My parent decided that me and my brothe r continued studying overseas maybe it will get better i mean my grades . Yea im looking forward to it . But i sure will take ageas before going ..

well got back my results . Not really good i must say . I pass my SA1 but overall i failed becaused i did fairly well in my CA1 . So yea i'v got to study hard now or maybe i won'y be in sec 4 next year . *(touch-wood)* . Yea that's all about it

I need a friend who is always there for me . Well that friend used to but now where had he/she gone to?? Im wondering still .. Could we be the same as before??. I

-I always wonder-

2006-05-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

I am someone
I walked past a dead face
even though the person was alive
I saw my eyes in the mirror
and cried at the sight
I looked at a person I didn¹t know
and I met a friend
I got heads to turn
when I walked past
I learned a lot about myself
when I lost a new friend
I cried every tear in my body
when I thought about love
I got hit bad
then got back in the ring
I climbed a mountain of rocks
and saw an eagle fly over- head
I heard terrible things about myself
when no one thought I was listening
I realized I was strong
when I didn¹t cry when it hurt
I found out who I was
when I was with someone else
I thought I was lost forever
when a friend found me
I held a life in my hand
and it was my own
I was a pawn in someone else's game
so I surrendered to a brook
I walked the fine line between surviving
and not wanting to survive
I still am
I am someone

Under "wish" there's a video =)) Haha lame

Jesse McCartney - Beacause You Live

2006-05-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

HELLO HA!!!.. Well its been quite a few days maybe weeks since i last blog.. Haha been busy nowdays ..

Anyway yup have been mugging .. Well was surfing the net when i came across 1 new band . Its more like a family band yea . Their name is "Jonas Brothers" . ea it consists of :
Nicholas Jonas - Guitarist , vocals [13 year old]
Joseph Jonas - Vocals [16 years old]
Kevin Jonas - Guitarist , vocals [17 years old]

Yea most of the songs were composed by Kevin . Kinda long story . So go to this webbie to find out more bout them .. www.jonasbrothers.com .. Till here then

2006-04-22T04:02:00.000-07:00

WHAT A DAY!!!!!!!!

Yup sorry didn't update for quite a long time . Had been busy lately . Yea exams are coming what can i expect but study study and LOTS of studying . Ok Yesterday was Speech day . Was fun but smth happened shall not bring it up hope we will find the culprit. Yea Went back home then sleep so darn tired .

Today i have "flag day" was rather fun woke up bout 5 to charged my mp3 . Yup was late woke up at about 7.45 .. Rushed everything then headed to meet Xin Hui Christ and Michele . Took the bag then had breakfast . Eat Burger king then wen to slacked at Kiddy Palace . After that went to J8. Took neoprints .. Haha was rather fun and the new machine was really nice . The pictures was like .. Yea you know .. Haha yup . Then went to returned the bag . Didn't really ask for donation was rather .. Yea you Know ..

"Well i'm called E.J=)).."

2006-04-17T03:27:00.000-07:00

HOLLABACKCREW !!!!!

What a day at last the battle is over . I meant the hollaback crew . yup i was happy . Well my group SPIRITS OF LOVE AND PEACE was 2nd!!!! How happy we were yea . I admit my group was close to street fusion Haha miss them lots .

Woke up early in the morning went to school and headed to indoor stadium . Yea caught a glimpse of CLICK FIVE on stage with waisun,rach and xiemeng if im not wrong.Then went to meet the others . We had rehearsals all along and we have to wait for like a very long hours to the competition . WE GOT TO MEET THE CLICK FIVE AGAIN . Haha it was an autograph session I only managed to gedhmm 2 of them only?? Haha i was happy they came . joey was really friendly Haha he joke around and and Eric do the hand shake . Whatever those teens do these days haha .. Yup well then finally the time arrived . Haha

We did the march pass and we all was like taking out our hands and like un know i can't explain cause i don't know how to . Yea . WOAH the crowd was great i love them man .. Haha then went my group perform OMG it was like the crowd cheering us all along . Haha . I didn't corked up the last part at leastn . Haha then we was supposed to be like performing with click five haha . yup behind the back stage whitley, st nicks and SCGS was like singing all along and kept on shouting to open the curtains hurry hurry and that kinda of stuffs . Haha . Woah . i really love them i really admire the way they composed the songs haha .. Yup the results was

Under-17
1st - SCGS
2nd - SPIRITS OF LOVE AND PEACE
3nd - ST . NICKS

Above-17
1st - ST FUSION
2ND - SE7EN
3rd - B2D

Well i love street fusion . The rock truely . I LOVE XAVIER AND JOEY too .. Haha . Well i don't why woodlands like not really happy with us when we win?? Its our hard work . Yea then went to eat lunch with my bro and Fauzee at Bugis shop around then headed home . Woah an experienced not to be missed

TO THE GLOBAL BEATS FOUNDATION
-Well you ppl are not losers . We win not as a group we win for our school . Cheer up . Put the pass behind ok??

-Adios-

2006-04-12T05:13:00.000-07:00

Well great . from friends to foes then foes to friends =))

Haha what a tough week this week . Haha but its worth it anyway . well today i was a little high haha . Yup play "sepak takraw" in the hall after my practice .. Well at least i admit somthing . I will be happy if i get to play or touch a ball i meant the ball we play.. Yea .. haha my nature what can i expect . lIke i say

-"Aku seorang perempuan tapi bila bermain bola aku menjadi lelaki .."-

Haha .. Yup thats all ..

2006-04-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

"Como La Flor"

Yo sé que tienes un nuevo amor
Sin embargo te deseo lo mejor
Si en mí no encontraste felicidad
Tal vez alguien más te la dará

(Coro)
Como la flor (como la flor)
Con tanto amor (con tanto amor)
Me diste tú
Se marchitó
Me marcho hoy
Yo sé perder
Pero ay...
Cómo me duele
Ay...
Cómo me duele

Si vieras como duele perder tu amor
Con tu adiós te llevas mi corazón
No sé si peuda volver a amar
Porque te di todo el amor que pude dar

"Like A Flower" [Translate]

I know that you have a new love
Nevertheless
I wish you the best
If in me you didn't find
Happiness
This time somebody else will give it to you

Chorus

Like the flower
With so much love
You gave to me
It withered
I leave today
I know how to lose
But
Oh, how it hurts me
Oh, how it hurts me

If you would see how it hurts me to lose your love
With your goodbye you take my heart
I don't know if I can love again
Because I gave you all the love that I could give

"The Queen Of Tejano Music"

2006-04-10T01:43:00.000-07:00

I was surfing the net when somethimg crossed my mind . It was my all time favourite singer Selena. Well i actually sort of forgot her songs but suddenly it just popped up in my mind . Well all about her is just tragic . If she would be alive right now i'll be kissing her all over .. Haha .. The sotry goes like this ..

The tragic shooting death of Tejano singer Selena spawned a reaction within the Latino community that can be compared to the reactions to the deaths of Elvis Presley and John Lennon. An enormously popular singer in Latino communities across North America, her music crossed cultural boundaries to touch the lives of young and old alike. A flamboyant, sexy stage performer, sometimes hailed as the Latina Madonna, Selena was nonetheless considered a role model for off-stage she was family oriented, active in anti-drug campaigns and AIDS awareness programs.

She was born Selena Quintanilla to Mexican-American parents in Lake Jackson, TX. Before her birth, her father Abraham had been a member of Los Dinos. When Selena began performing at the age of ten, her father became her manager and Los Dinos became her backing band. She made her recording debut in 1983 after appearing on popular the radio show of L.A. deejay Johnnie Canales. While Selena grew up understanding Spanish, English was her first language. Her first records were recorded in Spanish and she sang the words phonetically. After her music began to catch on, she began learning Spanish formally and by the time of her death, she was fluent in the language.

In 1987, she was named Female Vocalist of the Year and Performer of the Year at the Tejano Music Awards. Two years later she signed with EMI Latin and in 1990, she and Los Dinos released their eponymous debut album. Later that year she released a singles compilation, Personal Best, and she also released Ven Conmigo. In 1991 the title track of the latter became the first Tejano record to go gold. Selena also released two more albums, including one of Cumbia music, Baila Esta Cumbia that year. Selena married Los Dinos' lead guitarist Chris Perez in April of 1992. Other group members included her brother, Abraham Quintanilla, III, who played bass and penned many of her songs, and her sister Suzette, the drummer. She won a Grammy in 1993 for Best Mexican American Performance for her album Selena Live. That same year, she released an album of love songs, Quiero, and she also opened Selena Etc, a clothing manufacturing business. In 1994, she made her feature-film debut in Don Juan DeMarco, in which she played a singer. Later that year, she and her band embarked upon a tour of New York, LA, Argentina, and Puerto Rico. Amor Prohibido was released in 1994; it was nominated for a Grammy and went gold. In 1995, Selena began preparing to make her breakthrough into the American pop mainstream.

In the spring of that year she was working on her first English-language album, when she went to a motel room in Corpus Christi, TX, to fire 34-year-old Yolanda Saldivar, the woman who managed Selena's boutique in San Antonio, and the founder of the Selena fan club. A few days before the confrontation Selena's father had unearthed paperwork proving that Saldivar had been embezzling from the fan club. Saldivar and Selena argued and as the singer left, she was shot in the back. Selena didn't die right away and managed to stagger into the lobby where she named Saldivar as the killer. An hour later, Selena died in a local hospital.

It was a death that rocked the entire Latino music industry. Saldivar was convicted for the murder of Selena on October 23rd, 1995. Three days later she was sentenced to life in prison with no chance of parole for at least 30 years.

A special service was held in the Los Angeles Colliseum where she was to give a concert. Less than a month later, Texas governor George W. Bush declared April 16, "Selena Day," in her honor. Dreaming of You, her final album, was released posthumously in the early summer. It became the first Tejano album to reach number one in America and was double platinum by the end of the year.

Well .. Yup .. maybe thats all .

2006-04-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

I shall say .. Its been alooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnngg time since i last blog ryte?? Haha well nth much . Its just that been slacking at home all day long . Yea . Anyway yea im rather sleepy these days yea didn't get enough sleep . Especially when you are in a competition and its about 6 days?? Haha yea. im trying to change the percaussion im using to something much nicer to be hear . Yup .. Haha

Well sometimes somethings is easily not to be said out . Cause you may hurt someone or get yourself hurt . Sometimes its like that , ppl get offended so fast these days . Small things can be a realy big matter . It happened to me afew days ago but now we are back in track already. Yup as i sat down thinking long , being an infant is much better . A child who is just trying to adapt to the new world . Not knowing anything and still innocent infact . Slowly growimg up and enjoying the childhood . I just wish i could tur back time . I just wish . When you are a teenager you 'll have plenty of problems and a handful being solved . I just . That is what i am . All those peer pressure , schoolwork,parents and many other stuffs .. I just want a long break from all this . A nice cruise and a long hour sleep on a cosy little bed .. Haha ..hmm... long huh?? Haha .. Friends is all i need to occupy my life now ..

This thingy is actually refering to someone ..Well it goes like this . i thought you are a great friend of mine who is always there for me . I guess im wrong . What my other friends say about you is INDEED true . I just you've changed . I don't really know you now . im the first place we ask you to join but u reject thinking that my group is not really great . now we succeed to the finals we don't need you . but you wanna join suddenly . And i hate it when you INSULTED my team mates . We thought of letting you join but seeing your attitude it turns us down . We are FUCKINGLY SORRY . I dont want to insult you but now i have to . Cause we win as a group . We don't want fame we just want TO DO OUR BEST WE CAN!!!!!!!!

Haha .. Well now i know what my teamates really are . BUNCH OF CRAPS!!!Till here ..

-Adios-

2006-04-03T23:44:00.000-07:00

HappybirthdaytomeHappybirthdaytomeHappybirthdaytome .. =))

Haha .. Yup i turned 15 today . Haha .Anyway did'nt went to school today iwas sick . What a bad luck falling sick on your birthday?? Haha . yup did my usually routine early in the morning . I must say my bro is sooooooooooo sweet . Haha wish me early in the morning . Well he wouldn't wake up that early. Yup things are getting back to normal now .. hope it will stay and never fades away .. Anyway that's all..

2006-04-02T00:35:00.000-08:00

HOLLABACKCREW !!! IMCOMINGAGAINBABY .. Haha

Well im insane yea its true haha .. Anyway didn't really blog for about a few days cause im basically L-A-Z-Y !!!!!,, Yea thats what i am now .. HAha .. Yup yeaterday was the semis at the padang . Went to school first to practice abut more then headed down to padang . Yup secrets that was outdated now then i know -.- . Ok fine . Anyway yup reach there then 5 mins later we went to have our group photo yup was fun . The waited for that thingy to start . Was extremely-nervous . Haha . Anyway The did alternately above-17 then under-17 . Haha . When it was my group turns well we did our best . We play with the crowd .. Haha i lovethecrowds .. Yup then so does the other group . Shouted for them till i lodt some of my voice . yup SEVEN is soooooooooooo damn great .. Their song , percaussions and dances .. Woah i was HOT !!!! Haha .. Yup

My group's hardworks really pays off .. I can't believe that we all from 5 we shoot up toooooooooo 2ND!!!! Wohooooooooooooooooooooooo really man i was damn shocked ... GBF won 1st .. proud for them too .. Well then took some pics with SHAN n DANIEL haha .. Only me , jasz and colleen managed to take with them . Poor audrey and ethel Haha .. The just wanted to take out their phone when both of them ran away .. Haha ... WE GOT INTO THE FINALS AT LASTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

venue : Indoor Stadium
time : 3p.m onwards

BE THERE YEA????????? Hahah Well Click five here i come .. Hahahahahahaha

-Aku oun tak tau asl ramai org jealous dengan group aku . Sigh kenape tak original????? Jangan ikut aper yang kiter org buat nanti org kutu baru tau . Anyway aku nyer group confirm campion .. Insya-allah...

2006-03-29T05:39:00.000-08:00

WHEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha made a new blog . Well the reason is that i want to start everything new . Whatsoever past shall i forget (not all i mean some) Well hope i can changed to a better . Well haha i think that's all about it .. Anyway don't forget this saturday

Date - 1st april 2006
Time - to be confirmed
Place - Padang
For?? - THE HOLLA BACK CREW SEMI-FINALS !!!!!!!!!!!

Haha
-Adios-